Project 365

Welcome! This is my own 365 project of creating at least one post per day about the stuff that I learnt, achieved, and found, the stuff that made me happy, or the new thing I did every single day.

The project was started on 21 February 2010. It has stopped for few times but I am determined to continue!

This project is dedicated to myself. I want to feel grateful for every single thing I have. I want to be thankful for my own life. I just want to feel that I have enough.

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Happiness is…

For the first time of my life, after 3 years, I’m able to perform taraweeh prayer at the mosque. I can’t tell you how delighted I am. I’ve been going there for few days now. I never knew that the taraweeh prayer was performed quite early (around 10.45pm) at the mosque until a friend told me. That’s why I decided to join the prayers there.

I always thought that moving to this house was a mistake due to its well-known "dangerous" area. But now I think it’s a good decision! My house is located very near to the mosque and this is also the reason why I’m brave enough to go there at night. Alhamdulillah.

My homesickness decreases dramatically because of this 🙂 Thank you Allah.

Surprise Food Delivery


Recently, my friends said that I’m much skinnier than usual. I admit that I haven’t taken care of myself well these past weeks. I eat bread, chocolate, or noodles the whole time. I don’t feel like cooking anything. I just make sure that my stomach is not empty, but I don’t make it full either. But their comments about my skinny body struck me. I’m not fond of "skinny" body because I’m already skinny. How much skinny I can be before I turn into a scary bone creature? LOL.

So I "bragged" about it on Twitter. The next thing I knew was that: I got a food delivery from my "sister" Mulia who was in UK! It was a total surprise! I didn’t expect it at all!!! (obviously… d’oh) She’s so far away and at the same time so considerate!!! I have known her for about 6 years through online/blogging but we never had a chance to meet! We’ve discussed about a lot of stuff, from politics, religion, to personal issues and I consider her as my older sister. But I never expected that she’d be doing this to me!  I wanted to cry huhuhu. Some people are just so freakin nice, you know. Anyway, I didn’t know that there’s a website where you can order foods online from different restaurants and be delivered wherever you want! Cool stuff!

The food was delivered right before I was about to have my meal after Maghrib prayer. It was just on time haha. It was good and filling — a typical Turkish food. I still had some left for tomorrow 😉 and I also had some foods packed for me from Jessie’s mom (oh, she always does this for me all the time *cry*). I don’t need to cook for the next few days, alhamdulillah.

The wonder of Ramadhan? 🙂

First Ifthar


This was my first ifthar for this year at the Turkish mosque! The photo was taken yesterday. Alhamdulillah, I was very full and I had a great time with friends. There was absolutely nothing to complain about 🙂

* Photo courtesy of my friend Manda, edited by me using Picnik — a very cool online photo editing tool. It’s free!

First Day of Fasting


O you who have believed, decreed upon you is fasting as it was decreed upon those before you that you may become righteous

— Al-Qur’an 2:183

Fasting during summer in this part of the world is such a big challenge. Fajr is at 3.22 AM and Maghrib is at 9.30 PM. There is only a six hour difference between ifthar (breaking the fast) and sahur. My stomach cannot eat heavy meals twice in those hours. It’s such a short time span. So what I would usually do is to eat something light for ifthar, eat a heavy meal in the middle of the night (around 12 AM), and then eat a bread or two for sahur.

Another challenge for this year’s Ramadhan is to eat at 12 AM, because that means, I have to heat up the food in the kitchen which can disturb my housemates who are probably already sleeping. This wasn’t a problem last year because I knew my housemate always slept late. But my housemate this time isn’t that easy going when it comes to sleeping (not complaining, just saying… coz some people need quite a bit of time to fall a sleep). So maybe I’d eat a heavy meal for ifthar straight away… I don’t know… this doesn’t sound so good though. But we’ll see!

Although I still want to recite the Qur’an from start to finish during the Ramadhan, my focus for this year’s Ramadhan is more about learning the Qur’an in depth (i.e. the tafseer). This is yet another big challenge for me because I don’t know when I’ll have time for that!!! LOL. But insya Allah, when there’s a will, there’s a way. I wish I can write the things I learn here too so that you can benefit from it as well. But I really can’t promise! Perhaps I’d do that once I become a desperate job-seeker, then I’d have time *chuckles*.

In the mean time, I posted the tafseer of Surah Al-Ikhlas. It was typed months ago, so all I need to do is to change bits and pieces and make it easier for others to understand. There will be 5 parts in total, which will be published twice a week in this blog. This is perhaps one of my favorite talks by Brother Nouman Ali Khan. Not only did he talk about the meaning behind this Surah, but he also explained it in a grammatical sense. It makes me realize that the greatness of the Qur’an does not only lie in the miracles and the messages or stories behind it, but also the words that were chosen, the order of the words in a sentence, and the connection between one surah with the one before or after it.  Subhanallah. It feels absolutely amazing to know and understand the meaning of this surah word by word. It makes me feel so blessed to be born a Muslim. No other words can be described. I just hope the tafseer would be beneficial to you!

May Allah SWT forgive us for all of our sins, make it easy for us to perform this year’s Ramadhan and keep on encouraging and reminding us to do good deeds for Him only. Amin ya rabbal alamin.

The One That Touched Me

I went out of my house today to do grocery shopping. I was trying to unlock my bicycle in front of my house, when a middle-aged woman wearing a hijab walked to my direction. So I said, “Assalamu’alaikum.” She answered back, “Waalaikum salam”. She then asked me, in Dutch, “Do you live here?” She seemed surprised haha. And she started to tell me which house number she lived and that I could just ring her house door anytime I wanted.

I’ve lived in this neighborhood for almost a year, but I don’t know ANYONE here except my housemates. I don’t even know the neighbors next to us. Whenever we bump to each other, we just say “hi” and that’s about it. This is a “Western” thing. Individualism.

So I was quite delighted when she said that. I asked her where she came from (in my broken Dutch) and it turned out she’s from Morocco. She could speak Arabic too. The  next thing I knew was that she invited me to come over for ifthar anytime I want! At that moment I just felt like wanting to cry! My tears were on the edge of my eyes hahaha. I felt so “terharu”… I felt so touched, you know. I don’t know why. Maybe because I just miss the “Arabic” ifthar atmosphere. Usually some Moroccans refuse to be called Arabs, but I don’t care. Their culture is almost the same for me. LOL. I don’t mind having couscous hahaha.

Will I go to her house? I don’t know. I’m quite undecided. I know that she was not “basa-basi”. But I still have my “urat malu” hahaha. I’m still shy, you know. LOL. ME? SHY?! Yeahhhhh I’m a shy girl. HAHHAHA. I know what you’re thinking. Don’t raise your eyebrows! 😛

So, should I go or not? 😛



I got a chocolate and a postcard from Austria! ♥♥

Chatting with Broken Arabic

Chatting with my most favorite guy is always full of laughter (and full of ROFL smileys). I showed my brother this super cute picture of panda, because I knew he would not find her cute at all. He was simply annoyed, because it was just a freaking panda for God sake! Hahaha.

It’s no secret that we LOVE to speak in broken Arabic. So much so that our dad was annoyed upon hearing it every time hahhaa. But it’s so funny! We call it a broken Arabic because we can put the verb and noun in any place we want. We basically imitate how the Indians, Pakistanis, Bangladeshis, and some Indonesians speak Arabic. LOL. The funny thing is that some Saudis use broken Arabic too when they speak with them!!! 😛 The bad thing about it is that I no longer know how to speak in proper Arabic!!! I totally forgot hahaha! I don’t talk Arabic to anyone else except him. This is bad! LOL.

Not a lot of people know that the Arabs use numbers to replace some Arabic letters that do not exist in the Roman alphabet. For example, the letter ‘ain (ع) is replaced with number 3. In the chat above, I wrote the word ba3den which means later. Another example is the word 5alas which means enough/that’s it/finish. The number 5 denotes the letter kha’ (Ø®) in Arabic. The word can also be written as khalas.

For the complete list of alphabets, go to this Wikipedia page about Arabic chat alphabet.

Who cares?

It’s been a week (or more) that almost the whole Europe is panicking about E.coli. Some of my friends are quite careful of what they eat. One of them is even thinking about not eating veggies at all!

How about me?

I just couldn’t care less. The older I am, the more I think that death can happen to anyone tomorrow if Allah SWT wants it. The destiny of each person has been written already. If I were destined to die tomorrow, whether or not I would be infected by the E.coli, I would die anyway! Ok, that’s creepy right?! Hahahaha.

But you know. Veggies are not even banned by the government. It’s different when you eat veggies that are contaminated with E.coli (and you know it before hand), then that’s the same as suicide! But the veggies are still safe to eat! So why bother to be paranoid? Hehehehe.

I was also laughing when people got suddenly afraid when it’s "predicted" that Jakarta would have tsunami or earthquake in few years time. First of all, no one can predict WHEN exactly the earthquake will happen. Second of all, (back to my previous point) if you’re the only person in Jakarta who was destined to live, you would live no matter what! You would live even though the whole Jakarta was flat!

Ok, that’s just me, you know. The ignorant part of my brain ticks in. Hence, this stupid post 😛

Nasi Goreng


When you have a lot of things you want to get rid of (and you’re kinda lazy to cook), it’s best to make nasi goreng (fried rice)! Broccolis, zucchinis, shrimps, and mushrooms 🙂 — everything needs to be gone by next week.



Alhamdulillah, I passed my last and only course!!!! WOHOOOOO!!!! I was so happy. Thank you ya Allah. You’re always there when I need You ♥

My last course EVER! Will I be going to school again?! I’m sure I’m going to miss it. If I had the chance to do it, I would probably choose Pedagogy or Social Work 🙂