Reflection of the Day

by Amalia

I used to think, wow! I was the luckiest girl in the whole wide world!

I had a great childhood. I was the happiest girl around. Freedom was my zone. The world was my playground. I was surrounded with the most beloved ones.

Then, one day, BAAAAM! The wall shattered.

That only wall which had been protecting me since the very day I knew the world existed. The high wall that I relied on. It became nothing but pieces of broken stones.

Day by day, I tried to collect them. Crawling, I struggled to find them. The precious ones that were no longer valuable.

What was the purpose? I asked. The damage was too great. One day, those stones would crush into gravels. Then into sands. Someday. In the future. Without a warning.

Everything would be okay, I was whispered. As Rumi said, "anything you lose comes round in another form". Would it come in another form? I refused to know. But it kept me wondering…

Had I been too naive? Was I too far from reality? Why wouldn’t anyone knock the door first? Why wasn’t I woken up?

Suddenly I was here, in the middle of the road. Why did destiny bring me here?

The road was too rough. It was too narrow. The car had stopped. I was left in a darkness where moon refused to shine. The fear was uncontrollable.

Time was ticking. I had to keep going. Perhaps, this was the time that I had to face those bumpy roads. This was the time I would take over the wheel.

I might had lost the wall. I might had been stranded on the road. Destiny might had been unfair to me. But was that it? Was it what life all about?

No. Of course not.

Life was not only about avoiding the bumpy roads. It was not only about passing through those roads and fighting the fear. It was not only about reaching the destination. It was about focusing on the good ones and keeping the bad ones out. It was about accepting the destiny.

Destiny was non-negotiable. It could not be changed. It was there to give me a lesson. It was there to give life a whole new meaning. Would I eventually accept the destiny that had been determined for me? Only time would tell.