Project 365

Phew. There are too many things to be grateful about today. It was quite a busy and tiring day, yet at the same time it was such a fun and exciting day.

After about a month of procrastinating, finally my friend and I resumed our project that had been looooongggg abandoned. I went to the ICTheek in the morning and tried to understand the whole thing. It wasn’t so effective, but at least we saw some light. We saw progress. It was slow. Yet, we were a bit sure. At least, this could be my new motivation! 🙂

I went to the High Tech Campus to meet with some people to finalize my website project. I was sooo panic that time because I was 15 minutes late! I could have been on time had my Dutch class finished on time and I weren’t LOST! It was raining so heavily that for the second time I was lost. I took the wrong street. I cycled and cycled and cycled until I had no energy. I felt so bad 🙁

Long story short… I met them and discussed about some improvements and adjustments that I needed to make. We discussed about the salary too. Well, in the beginning I wasn’t expecting that much since this was a new NGO. So I was quite satisfied with it, alhamdulillah. I also told my boss that once I graduate (if!), I’d be able to work for him temporarily; so that at least I can do something while I seek for a permanent job. Well, let’s see what will happen later.

After the meeting, my boss and I also had a long conversation about his work and life, politics, etc. It was quite interesting. Meeting this kind of people who is the initiator and whose purpose is to improve other people’s life always inspires me. Hope I’d be able to do it one day. Insya Allah. Amin.

My day finished with a great dinner at Agni’s place with his sister and Arya. It was such a fun and warm night. We haven’t done any dinner gatherings for sometime now… Hmm, maybe we should plan one soon! (trying to gather my motivation here!)

I’m really looking forward for tomorrow. I’ll be going to meet a couchsurfer from Russia for a coffee. This would be the first meet up after I took a long half a year break from Couchsurfing. It’s going to be exciting! And he seems very excited! I’ll share the stories tomorrow, of course. Good night. Dream sweetly.

Antwone Fisher: “Why do I have to forgive?”
Jerome Davenport: “To free yourself, so you can get on with your life.”

– Antwone Fisher movie

When someone makes a mistake that leaves scars in your heart, it is hard to see him beyond his mistakes. It is easy for you to forget what this person did to you before this happens. It’s easy to deny the fact that he is a normal human being that is capable of making faults. It’s easy to forget that he was the one who were there for you when you needed someone at 1 am. No matter how cold it was at night, he came for you and listened to your problems. He made sure that you were okay.

I wonder… how could I be so blind? How could I not realize it til now?

So… I’ve decided. I’m going to leave these pages empty and close this book. I’m going to get another one. I’m going to start everything from the beginning again. I’m going to forgive him. So that I can get on with my life.

This is the painting of a famous Dutch painter, Vincent Van Gogh. It’s called Almond Blossom and is one of my favorite paintings of Van Gogh. I bought a huge poster of it few months ago which are now displayed in my room. I also bought a smaller version for my former housemate and close friend, Jenn, for her 25th birthday.

I was (and I still am) so happy today. After a long and tiring (yet fun day!), I got a sweet surprise: I received a letter from Jenn. I couldn’t describe how excited I was when I saw the envelope which had my name on it! I could recognize right away her writing and I knew it was from my dear friend Jenny. As I read her 4 small pages of letter, tears flew from my eyes. And suddenly… all the sweet memories that we had 2 years ago came to life.

I’m just too grateful to have a friend like Jenn 🙂