Dilemma

by Amalia

Mom sent me a message asking me if I have any plans for the summer; otherwise I could just go back to Indonesia. My cousin is getting married and mom wants me to be present. My sis is going to attend the wedding too.

I don’t want to go. I really want to attend my cousin’s wedding, but right now I’m really trying to save money for my extended study here. It’s already stressing me out that I couldn’t be able to pay for the tuition fee. I don’t know. I’m trying to get a loan from the bank which I have no idea if it’s ever possible. I’m still waiting for the answer from the university.

I haven’t told my mom about my decision yet. I’m going to work my ass off this summer. I have to get money to fund my living cost for the next 6 months I’m here (starting from September). I have to make sure that I have enough money, so that I can focus on my thesis the moment my scholarship finishes. I really hope.

Ya Allah, open the doors for me, please. Help me.